Love

I'm just back from Tea Garden.
It seems I've caught a flu.
Keep sneezing since two days ago.
Daren't eat fried food or buy cold drinks.
So I simply asked for a cup of hot soya bean just now.
Erm, yesterday was an uneventful day.
Same for today.
Not much new thoughts.
Hence, there's not much for me to write about.
The reason that I write blog is because
I'd like to answer for myself.
Or rather for my life.

There's another former classmate
getting into relationship.
Love is so weird?
Quite a few pairs of couple that I've seen
are kinda out of my anticipation.
And he's still single?
Hoho..
But some people told me that
what I felt for the guys before
was simply admiration.
Maybe..
I don't know how to define
like..
infatuation..
affection..
admiration..
and love.
Basically when they are giving me
cold shoulders,
I'll be giving up soon.
So I never get my hopes up.
Because the guys that I'm able to set my eyes on
are usually cold and indifferent.
Perhaps it's because I love to know more about
human nature.
That's why the more indifferent the person,
the more curious I feel about him.
Yet the outcome is usually that
they're not willing to open their heart to me.
And yeah,
just like what my former classmate said,
the person must have some speciality or talent
that's able to attract my attention.
And now?
I don't feel for anyone.
Maybe there's..
but just no spark in between he and me.
At least he's a kind-hearted and considerate person.
Easier to get along.
But I believe I'm not his cup of tea.
I still can't draw a conclusion
on what love is.
Don't know which day it'll come.