Let Go

It takes a lot of effort to overcome certain things
if you really care about someone.
But he said just let it flow?
Since I can't block those thoughts,
all I can do is ignoring them.
I'm having holidays,
so my life now is sort of stress-free.
I can fall asleep faster, comparing
to the last time.
But of course,
I have to try my best not to mind about
those stuff.
Just get rid of all the unwanted thoughts
before sleeping.
Sometimes indifference is a good thing.
Your mood won't be affected by all the happenings.
Your sleep won't be disrupted by all the trivialities.
Anyway I'm still doing my best to balance between both.

Talking about friends,
who are the ones more important to me?
I found that I can get along more naturally
with certain people,
even though not much contact usually.
At least I know what to say.
Because basically I can talk about more topics
or anything with them.
Why is there such a big difference compared
to former classmates?
They were those who studied with me
in the same class or school.
But the others weren't even by my side
during primary or secondary school.
I feel kind of uneasy to attend
this kind of gathering.
Just sitting there and listening to what people say.
More of it is that I have to put up a front.
Anyway I'm sort of a failure on communications.

Yesterday I felt like contacting a friend.
Sigh..As what I expected,
he didn't know who I'm.
I gave him a second chance by sending another
message using my Digi number.
Erm, the outcome was the same.
He still couldn't figure out who I'm
although I did tell him my number on Fb before.
I was thinking whether his innocence is real.
He keeps losing his phones and contacts.
Who's the blurrer one?
He or me?
Haha..
Anyway I didn't want to reply again at first.
He didn't even look me up after so long.
See, he got girlfriend then totally forgot about
my presence.
In the end I replied him because I was bored
when the drama just started.
Haha!
Anyway the Mongolian girl is not his
official girlfriend yet.
But still I sent my warmest blessings to them.
I hope they will treasure each other.
Oh yeah..A BP friend sent me a Christmas message as well.
It's good to be remembered by someone.
Haha!
But she's the only contact in BP that I still keep.