Begin to change

I don't know what's the reason.
But I'm quite happy today.
What could be the reasons that caused
such a big change to my mood?
Well,probably is that I was relieved
when I heard from my mum.
So I don't have to worry so much
about the problem.
At least, for the time being.
And also I've got some guidance from a friend.
I wouldn't like to use the word 'advice'
because it seems more to be more helpful
rather than a piece of advice.
I try not to think so much further..
not to keep asking myself how to find my true self back.
Anyway is it really what i'd like to regain?
Means the one in the past wasn't really
the real inside of me?
Each time I look back,
I found that I don't like my doings.
I thought I was hurt deep inside before.
I realised I wasn't mature enough.
And I'd like to re-write my life journal.
But no turning back?
I thought I'd never like to cultivate a habit
to write diaries or blogs.
Because I have no enough patience
to maintain it for a long period of time.
But right now,
I begin to think that I should really get started.
Get started for living my life to the fullest.
Am I able to do it?
I always think that the reality won't allow me
to have much choices.
And eventually it's me who giving in.
I still don't think I'll have other better choices.
But I'd like to believe that
eventually everything will turn out all right.
Could it be realised some day?
I hope so.