Silence
Each time when you say 'thanks', 'yeah', 'you are welcome',etc.
How serious are you when you blurt out these words?
To me, sometimes they're just perfunctory remarks.
Some words that I'll just say without second thoughts.
But when it's directed at the people who I truly care about,
surely it comes from the bottom of my heart.
Never doubt that.
Anyway I believe it's easy to distinguish the moments that
I express them sincerely from those that I don't.
Hmm..Not saying that I'm not sincere.
Just that they're passing remarks?
I don't speak
but my silence doesn't mean I'm ignorant or unawared
of what's going on.
Although sometimes people just blurt out unintentionally,
it seriously can affect my emotion.
I used to think that I'm one who can express my feelings well.
But as time flies,
I realise I'm not.
I remain silent if I can't express it in words.
Well, this happens sometimes.
A lot of indescribable feelings
that I couldn't even explain it myself.
People either just think I'm always so quiet
or I'm not good in language?
I guess that's what they think of me.
Frankly, I hope someday there'll be someone
who's willing to find out what I'm thinking.
At least help me unravel it.
I failed to score A for communication module
by 0.4 mark.
Is it that surprising if I'm good in written language?
It's likely that people's jaw will drop.
I started learning on my own since Form 4.
In the past I had changed quite a few tuiton centres
in order to learn it well.
Because the teaching materials were kinda too easy.
Who's to blame?
But that's my homeland.
I read and read a lot of essays and novels.
Dictionary was the one who accompanying me
most of the time.
I'd still like to discover more about language.
But I'm preoccupied with my work.
Again, I didn't sleep well.
When'll I be able to take my lovely sleep?
For language, communication skills and writing skills are two totally different aspects. So it's not really that surprising?? I have seen many cases similar to this. Anyway, I always have lots of weird dreams when I am sleeping in SG. In the end, I also don't geet much sleep I guess?? Haha... Well, just take things easy.
ReplyDeletehmm?but it really was surprising to people around me.yeah,i myself also felt that it's nothing.coz it's really hard to score A.oh,haha..thanks.
ReplyDeleteOh? Is that so?? Well, as I always say, just take things easy. Your vocab is wide but maybe the way you phrase sentences makes them sound not so smooth. well, just try your best~
ReplyDeleteerm,i guess u misapprehended my blog.my module was based on writing skills last sem.as usual it's very hard to score A.so i think my grade was higher than them coz i missed by 0.4 mark.when teacher announced it,it was surprising to them coz i was better than the rest.i didnt use present tense coz i didnt want to make it so clear.anyway thanks!
ReplyDeletesorry,i wanted to say 'past tense'.haha
ReplyDeleteOooo... So you mean they were surprised that you scored well?? Ok, I get it now. I thought that it's graded based on communication and presentation skills. Anyway, the module was last sem but the results were only released recently?? Well, since you did well, just be happy with it. You don't have to care about what others think. ;)
ReplyDeletehaha..CSAS 2 was based on communication n presentation but CSAS 3 wasnt.no la..it was released long ago.just that there was sth that linked to it somehow.they were surprised.somemore i do write blog now.haha..yeah,coz my mood was affected.so i just wrote in my blog.thanks,dear friend.hehe..
ReplyDeleteOh... I don't know your syllabus. So paiseh ya. Haha! Ok, so they didn't know your results and somehow you guys chatted right into that topic? I think your case is better than people expecting you to do well, but in fact you didn't. That's lie a thousand times worse then this. Haha... Blogging is quite normal. Anyone can do it. Maybe they just don't know the real you?? But at least your 'friend' should understand. Haha! Wah, you called me 'dear'?? Unbelievable!
ReplyDeleteoh,haha..no la,it was just sth that upset me for a while.but nvm.my friend?he didnt know i do write blog ba.haha..yeah,my dear friend.
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